You're invited to a pity party.

Yes, its sadly true. I'm in the midst of a full-blown pity party. I think its mostly due to feeling helpless, unhelpful and a bit useless here at my internship. This week has consisted mainly of sitting around, as our orientation schedule wasn't that full, there weren't that many post-natal clients, and no one seems to know quite what to do with us. I'm told this will pass once we get into our official job positions, but unfortunately all this down time leaves room for thinking. and feeling homesick. and thinking some more.

I'm scared that I won't get enough out of this placement, that I won't BE enough, or that I'm wasting time when I could be learning so so much. I'm trying to have patience but it's fa.iling me today. Something that might have set it off could be that we've had the run-around with using the clinic car. Lauren passed the driving assessment yesterday, and we were told we could take it home, and then found out we have to wait until Monday, which is fine. When we clarified this today, they said oohh no, you'll have to still be dropped up and picked off by the driver for another week but you can practice drive during the day so we know you're fine on the left side of the road.
I understand their concern, but again it just makes us feel housebound, and a bit like we're being babied. Different cultures- I think I need to again have more patience.
I just want to DO something meaningful, improve things, fix things and I don't know that I'll be able to do that here. I'm going to perservere with this, and hopefully next week will bring more clarity and opportunities for involvement and positive change.


Very glad it's Friday- not sure on weekend plans just yet, but we're going to meet up with the other two BC girls who are interning at Jesuit Refugee Service on Sunday which I am very very much looking forward to.